CHANGE: the act or instance of making or becoming different.

I can think of several instances in my life which have changed or altered my future forever. Some happy like getting married and having babies, and others like my current trial are devastating. Each one had a lesson and an opportunity for growth.  In the definition of change the part that strikes me is the word “instance”. Everything can change in but an instance.

Last May, the kids and I were driving home from a friends house in Heber. We were talking and singing, when all of a sudden I heard a pop and the car veered sharply to the right. Miraculously we didn’t hit another car, and as we hit the barrier all I could think was to keep my wheel straight and NOT to over-correct. Somehow I stayed calm and once I came to a stop I checked on my babies. Both were scared but completely unharmed. All I could think about was how in one moment everything could have been so different. A week later in almost the same spot, a man was killed due to an almost identical situation.

As we were waiting 20 minutes for a tow truck, the police and a ride home, I started to cry. The kids were mad, hot, and tired of sitting. I felt so helpless, and sunk into a ginormous pity party about how 2017 just wasn’t my year. Mid-tears a thought came to my head “I can make this right, not only right but better”- I wasn’t alone with my babies on the side of the road. I had guardian angels and my savior beside me.

The trauma of this incident was short-lived. We were finally picked up, insurance was easy to deal with, and within a week we received a decent sized check to use on another car. The thought I had came true, I ended up with a better, more reliable car (which I was in desperate need of). This may be a small example, but it gave me so much hope.

I will never forget the night in January when in an instant my whole world crashed around me. I lost my husband, marriage, security, self-esteem and hope for more children all in an instant. The future I once thought possible was gone. Nothing would ever be the same, and I’d have to give up so many dreams I had wanted for myself and my family.

“I can make this right, not only right but better”.  Even something as devastating as this- he can make better. It may not be as quick and I am still unsure how a life so broken can be truly healed. With God all things are possible.

A dear friend of mine has an inspiring blog As Dews From Heaven. Several weeks ago she wrote a post called You’re Human.  Go read it it’s fabulous. In the post she wrote about a unique Japanese art form called “kintsugi”. A friend of hers explains it as follows:

“This Japanese art form “kintsugi” repairs broken pottery by filling the cracks with precious metals to restore the damaged pieces to create something beautiful and whole. Compared to Western culture which values flawless perfection, this Japanese art form treasures broken pieces and scars from the past experiences that can be fixed, finished, and completed to become more than the original.” -Emily Allen White

How beautiful and inspiring is that? I may be broken, but I’m still beautiful. In an instant my whole life changed, but he can fix that. My Savior can and will fill all my broken pieces with something much better than gold- with love!